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Okay, so I may not be the most interesting read and I may not say anything that you don't already know but this diary is mainly for myself. I enjoy sharing it with others, particularly my close friends so they know what's happening in my world, but its still mainly for me. I love to type out my thoughts. Its a great break from my otherwise hectic day. And I love reading over old entries and seeing how much life has changed. So enjoy the read but try not to be too critical.

A Lot of Ramblings
October 25, 2006 - 2:16 p.m.

*sigh* No one seems to update their diary on a normal basis lately. Makes for a very quick run through of my daily routine - each morning after I drag my butt out of bed, I head for the computer while the girls are still asleep and catch up on my favorite comic strips, the news and of course, my favorite diaries. But lately, theirs not a whole lot of news, other than political stuff and not one of the diaries that I frequent has been updated. Oh well... Onto what I was going to write about... :p

Waking up at 4:40a.m. to drive across town and work out is no easy thing. Though I hate to sleep in and love the morning, it is very hard for me to get my butt out of bed. I remember when I was in college and got up at 3a.m. to be to work at 4:30. When I was in high school, I could hear the alarm's little mechanisms click and turn the alarm off right before it actually started beeping at me. You know what my problem is? Laziness, pure and simple. When you don't HAVE to be at work before 8a.m. every morning and your work is just outside your bedroom door, its hard to make yourself rush to get ready for the day. I have to reteach myself how to be an early bird.

The nice thing about this whole situation is that my husband is very much the early bird. So having someone to force me out of bed in the morning will be a great help. :P Paul has been such a great help to me these past couple of weeks as I've dealt with a small bought of "stay-at-home mom depression", a messy house & an extremely low self-esteem due to my being a bit lumpier than I would like. It is nice to have someone who will help with the dishes, taking you out without the kids in tow and tell you you're beautiful and mean it when you feel anything but.

In all my self-loathing and self-pitty in the past week, I also realized that I have been one heck of a crummy friend. I haven't even talked to my best friend but once in the past week and a half. The last time I saw her - other than when Paul got his hair cut - was the monday before last. With she and her husband teaching the Jr. High class, we rarely see them at church any more. I talk to Nancy,Mari and Tedi about once a week and that's usually only because they call me. Of course nine times out of ten, I miss the call and have to call them back because I'm just that good at hearing the phone before the 10th ring. *sigh* I really need to work on that. I don't want my closest friends to think that I don't have the time for them or anything like that.

You know, I need a book to write all these thoughts down. At least, all the things that I've learned in the past two weeks. Mari has this leather, soft bound book that's like 300 pages thick and as pretty as can be that she writes all her thoughts down in. If I could find a book like that with a cover that was "ME", I'd totally do that. Its easier than trying to seperate the wheat from the chaff while reading over my entries. .... Now I'm sounding like a retard. Okay. I guess that's my cue to get back to sorting through the girls' clothes and packing away the summer stuff. Woo hoo! I'd love to call someone but they'll all at work right now. So I'll just crank up the Message as loud as I can without waking the baby and get back to work.

Toodles!!! And enjoy that cool weather! Maybe we'll get snow for Thanksgiving, huh? Wishful thinking, I know.

A Heart In Turmoil - July 25, 2007
Still My Baby Girl - July 24, 2007
Aaaaggghhhh! Stessful Summer! - July 23, 2007
Jumping Through Hoops - July 20, 2007
A Vacation from Vacation - July 17, 2007

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