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Okay, so I may not be the most interesting read and I may not say anything that you don't already know but this diary is mainly for myself. I enjoy sharing it with others, particularly my close friends so they know what's happening in my world, but its still mainly for me. I love to type out my thoughts. Its a great break from my otherwise hectic day. And I love reading over old entries and seeing how much life has changed. So enjoy the read but try not to be too critical.

Scaredy Cat!!
November 07, 2006 - 2:00 p.m.

So here I am, typing away on the computer at two in the afternoon. I really should be cleaning but I had to take a break from that in order to search for a receipt from O'Reillys for some brakes that, though replaced in August, have gone bad. We need to see if the brakes have a warranty on them. Of course, I can't find the receipt anywhere. I have found a dozen others from the past year but not that one. How typical is that?!

I'm a big chicken. Plain and simple. I am. I dislike our Sunday School class immensly. Its not the people in the class necessarily. They're sweet people. Its just no longer a class that Paul and I can feel plugged into. We tried for a while and then we just stopped coming. The last couple of times we showed up, it felt so blah. I can't really explain it. I just think it is time to move on. Two of the couples that used to be in our class, and are good friends of ours, have moved to the other "married's" class. We've talked about it a bit and have decided to give it a try. The only thing is, I'm a chicken, as I've stated before. I have never felt connected at all with the people in that class. In all honesty, they intimidate me. I was invited to go to a purse party yesterday evening and a bunch of the girls would be there. I said I would go. I chickened out. I know. That's crap. I need to just suck it up and go. Its not going to get any better if I don't try, right?

Well, now I have to see if I can mend fences. I should have at least called her to tell her I decided not to go but I knew that my reason for not attending was crappy. Its so hard to just suck it up and interact with people you really don't know. I am by no means a people person. People scare me. And I worry, as Paul would say, WAY too much about what other people think about me. I really need to get over that or I will never feel comfortable with anyone outside my close circle of friends.

I need to go. I have cleaning left to do and I still need to work out before we go over to Krista & Derrick's tonight. Tedra and I are baking on Friday. I'm looking forward to it. Its been so long since I've done that with anyone. I need it.

Anyhoo...Have a good week!

A Heart In Turmoil - July 25, 2007
Still My Baby Girl - July 24, 2007
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Jumping Through Hoops - July 20, 2007
A Vacation from Vacation - July 17, 2007