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Okay, so I may not be the most interesting read and I may not say anything that you don't already know but this diary is mainly for myself. I enjoy sharing it with others, particularly my close friends so they know what's happening in my world, but its still mainly for me. I love to type out my thoughts. Its a great break from my otherwise hectic day. And I love reading over old entries and seeing how much life has changed. So enjoy the read but try not to be too critical.

Yeah, I'm Really That Pathetic...
November 13, 2007 - 12:44 a.m.

I'm sorry I'm cross posting from my Myspace blog so much recently but I just don't have the energy or the brain power right now to keep two seperate blogs. Thank you for bearing with me. I promise I'll get back on top of things eventually but for now...

So Paul left for the most boring training class ever. Paperwork. Yep. He gets to take a class on how to do his paperwork. Not that a guy who's been doing the same job for 11 years wouldn't know how to do it but its a required course and he has to take it so off he went. He'll be back on Friday. That's only 4 days away. Yet here I am, being a big baby about it.

Paul went out and bought me a new webcam so that we both could video chat during the week and keep us all sane. Morgan took his leaving a bit hard but I'm sure she'll be fine by tomorrow. I'm fine - as long as I don't go into the bedroom. I'm thankful that I can chock some of this up to pregnancy hormones but I bawl every time I walk into the bedroom and am reminded that hubby isn't going to be crawling into bed next to me. Its easier when I'm somewhere else while he's gone. In previous years, I'd go up to stay with the in-laws while he was gone. It helped because I wasn't home. But Morgan has school so I can't do that. So I may just end up sleeping on the couch for the next few days. Yes, I am that pathetic. ... sigh ...

He should be landing from his second flight soon. I'm hoping he has enough energy to chat for a few minutes. I've got to get up early to get Morgan up for school so this will definitely be a fun week. Pregnancy means sucky sleep so Paul lets me sleep in while he takes care of getting Morgan off to school. .... more sighs ....

I need to get some sleep. Its nearly 11:30pm, I'm an emotional wreck and have been for more than 4 days. My pregnancy hormones have definitely kicked into high gear. I have bawled for reasons I don't even know. Every time we see a little baby, the tears start pouring. Its rediculous. I'm such a retard. I think I'm going to try crawling into bed and playing some solitaire until Paul messages or calls. I hope its soon. I will wake up in the middle of the night miserable if I don't hear from him but I'm oh-so tired. Bah. I'm so difficult.

An Update - March 16, 2008
Productivity :) - January 14, 2008
Sounds of Contentment - December 09, 2007
Pregnancy Hormones Gone Wild - December 07, 2007
Can I Nap Now?? - December 03, 2007